No time? Get slapped into the hospital- that’ll give you some time!

Haven’t really had time to blog lately because I’ve been so busy, so God decided to give me some extra time on my hands and slap my tail in the hospital for the weekend and possibly for the rest of the week.  So, on Friday I go walking into school after dropping Fischer off at school, Baker with the sitter and picking up Starbucks for me and Mike.  I brought Mike his coffee, sang in my car while heading to park and walked my happy tail into the school and up the stairs.  I felt fine, people.  F.I.N.E.  Sporting my new Sorel boots (yes, apparently I needed winter Sorel boots in Georgia even if it is 80 degrees outside), I walked into the mail room with my backpack on and coffee in my hand and apparently spoke to our sweet school nurse who happened to be in the mailroom.  What happens next is all from second hand sources because I remember nothing…Apparently, I just fell out.  I fell face first hitting a large garbage can on my way down while our sweet nurse tried to break my fall.  I started seizing before going into cardiac arrest, and Candy went into nurse mode directing people to get the AED, call 911, and she started CPR on me.  Mike was immediately called, and he was told that a cheerleader fell out in the conference room and to come ASAP.  He immediately left his class and drove from the Fieldhouse up to the school while a coach is calling him and telling him to get up there ASAP.  Mike had no idea this “cheerleader” was his wife.  He pushed past the admin that were in the door because at this point it is during a class change, and the admin doesn’t want them to see what’s happening.  The AED is already hooked up to me (which by the way means that my shirt and bra were cut down the center and I’m exposed to the world…awesome…not embarrassing at all…promise), I get a shock, and Mike gives me breaths while Candy does compressions until the EMTs arrive where they take my boots off (thank goodness they took those off and didn’t have to CUT them!) but they had to cut my jeans (cute Flying Monkey jeans, I’d like to add) in order to put the leads on my calves.  I came to while Mike was giving me breaths and apparently was making some awful and painful noises.  The EMTs get me in the ambulance and Mike rides in the front seat.  I’m taken to Gwinnett Medical where they get me stable and the dust can begin to settle.

What.  The.  Hell.  Happened?

I mean, seriously?!  Am I not going through enough with all this chemo and cancer crap?!  Now, I’m having MAJOR heart issues?!  I truly believe God has a plan…I’m just not sure I understand why I am being put through the ringer.  I feel like I’m handling things with positivity and grace, but how much can a girl take?!  I broke down today.  I feel like I held it together on Friday…after I came to and some of the amnesia wore off.  I feel like I held it together Saturday and laughed and joked with all my sweet friends and family.  The plan was to get me fitted for a Life Vest…aka my own personal AED attached to me with a stylish “bag” that gets to be carried around like a purse 24/7, and then maybe get discharged on Sunday.

Well, change of plans, folks.  I may even be here all week.  Apparently, I’m throwing PVCs…nothing totally new there…been throwing those puppies since I delivered my little Baker Bug…but NOW I am having long QTs….which if your heart can’t correct itself, then you go into cardiac arrest….exhibit A:  Ashley Taube, October 14th.  So, now they are thinking I may need to get an AICD implanted (similar to a pacemaker).  Wait.  What?!  Did I hit my head and become 80 overnight?!  A pacemaker?!  As in that thing that all the roller coasters say, “don’t ride if you have a pacemaker.”  What the crap?!  AND…AND…another surgery to get this thing implanted?!  Seriously?!  Having a hard time getting my brain wrapped around all of this.  I thought cancer was my issue?!  No?!  Not enough?!  Sweet, let’s add cardiac arrest to the mix.  So, now is the waiting game to consult with my Tampa doctors to see if I can even handle a surgery.

I don’t want to throw a pity party and say, “Why me?!”  but I am human, and all I can think is “WHAT THE CRAP?! WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?!”  It’s Fischer’s birthday week- I want to be with my family!  My cheerleaders just had a major competition (which by the way, holy cow they killed it- so proud of them!  I mean, I can’t have cardiac arrest every time I want them to do well, but hopefully that won’t have to happen again.), we have practice all this week, another competition on Saturday, I have jury duty next week (totally going to get out of that- I think I have a good reason), and I’m stuck here…in the hospital…again.  Searching for meaning and purpose while still trying to keep my focus and energy on all the positive things and allowing my body to heal.  God placed important people in important places on Friday, so I don’t think it’s my time.  The fight continues.  I may be blogging more often now that I have a bit more time on my hands.  And by the way, the picture of me and my boys was us on Friday morning before heading to school.  We all had on our Team Taube shirts ready for the Purple Out game that night.  It’s crazy how just a few short hours later I’d be falling out and landing myself back in the hospital.

59 thoughts on “No time? Get slapped into the hospital- that’ll give you some time!”

  1. Prayers continue for you. Man oh man. You certainly can have a pity party!!!! It’s allowed. You’ve got my number if I can do ANYTHING for you!!!

  2. Ashley- can’t believe all you have been going through! Prayers for you and your family. I am certain your positivity and grace through all this is an inspiration to someone you don’t even know!!

  3. You are so tough and absolutely amaze me! Please know we are here for you and let us help! Please take time to rest! Love and prayers to you friend!

  4. Oh girl I’m beyond amazed by you! It’s okay to yell “what the crap” right now. I cannot imagine being able to handle 1/2 of what you do with even a hint of your grace. You’re a special person – you always have been and we are praying for you! We are here for anything you need!

  5. Bless you, Ashley! God certainly does have a plan for you.
    We will definitely keep you in our thoughts and prayers!

  6. Prayers sweet friend. Please please let me know if I can do anything. Even if you need help with the boys. Lots of love to you sweet girl. You’re going to fight through. ????????

  7. You are amazingly strong my friend! There are a multitude of people praying for you. As much as I hate what happened on Friday, I have repeatedly thanked God for Candy being there with you. Can’t wait to see you at my door soon! Hugs, Tammy

  8. You are so strong and such a fighter. I envy your outlook on life, even when times aren’t the best, you look towards the good things in life. You live it with the best intentions and have a huge heart for those around you. I read this, and couldn’t help but stop, cry, read the rest, and pray. You’re a Rockstar. Stay strong!!!

  9. Prayers for continued strength, peace, and faith in a God that will not fail you. Stay strong, Ashley. I will keep you and the family in my thoughts and prayers.

  10. Very teary eyed while reading this message. I hate that you went through any of this crap. You deserve as many vents and cry outs as you want. The more you get it out the stronger you get. I’m so impressed with your positive attitude and you made me laugh about your jury duty! You are right my friend, you have the right people in your life to get you through this. As always, you got this. You are going to get through this, whatever it takes. Continued prayers, we love you.

  11. I’m so happy that God put his angels in your path at the right time and place. Your words are written and spoken with eloquence and strength that will help you to overcome this. I’m praying for you.

  12. You are overdue for the pity party., but you will do what you have to do in order to get back on your feet. One day at a time and God will take care of the rest. Thought about you all weekend. Hate hospitals, but you are in a good one. Prayers and more prayers for your team of doctors . Evidently, God has a big plan for you as he placed you, Candy and Mike in the right place at the right time. Wow!

  13. Keeping you and your family in my prayers, Ashley – we love you! God placed you where you could be saved on Friday – He’s got you covered!

  14. Trish has been keeping us posted. We are praying for you guys Ashley and so thankful you were where you were on Friday.

  15. Omg. Amidst all the scariness of your day. This truly made mine. You are hilarious, poSitive ,real and yes indeed have much more to do. See you at the boutique very soon

  16. Ashley, Sending all the strength, prayers, and love I can to you and your wonderful family. Words fail me…just know I will be praying for you.

  17. Wow!!! So totally earned a pity party, for a moment at least. Your an amazing women, coach & mentor. Praying all the doctors get it all figured out & you back to your boys & hubby. Much love!!

  18. MRS. TAUBE!!! My entire heart goes out to you!! I am praying hard core. I’m so sorry to hear that this happened. However, I am amazed and inspired by you optimism. It is absolutely awing. I miss you and hope things get better. I believe you truly are one of the strongest people I’ve ever met! Fight on!

  19. I know you weren’t my teacher in high school, but I did see you around and some of my friends had you as a teacher and cheerleading coach. I just want to say that I read all of your posts and I want you to know that I am praying for you. I know you are going through a lot and just want you to know that you are in gods hands. Hugs and hopes for a quick recovery????

  20. I’m praying hard for you girl!! I can’t believe I missed your though.. I work at Gwinnett Medical! You must’ve been moved upstairs before I got there. Anyways… I will keep you in my daily thoughts and pray for a simple solution and for no more things to go wrong! Love you Mrs. Taube!!!

  21. You are amazing! There may be times when you dont feel it…but you are! You have every right to have any “pity party” you want! Your words are so inspiring and you never know who may be reading and how your words can change their life. You are going through so much and doing your best to stay strong and positive and THAT in itself is amazing! One day at a time my beautiful friend! Thank you for sharing your journey. Thank you for being inspiring…thank you for being YOU! Love and prayers for health and strength from the Fannin clan!! Natalie

  22. You are such a strong person with a strong faith. Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers, at all times! Love you and I am ready for you to get better.

  23. Sending prayers of comfort.. God has a plan. Take time to heal. You are surrounded by so much love and support!

  24. So glad to hear you are stable and doing well. Your girls were so worried about you on Friday- I was so excited for them and YOU on Saturday. You are an amazing role model for them and I’m praying for you!! Stay strong!
    Kelly Halcomb

  25. You will always be one of my favorites to photograph. I have thought of you many times this cheerleading season. You are an amazing example of strength and courage and I wish you peace and ease with this new hurdle.

  26. I have been in constant prayer for you since Friday. My heart aches for all you are going through. You exhibit so much strength and grace. Continue to lean on God. He is cradling you in His arms.

  27. Keep on Keeping on girl! Just know that you and your family are in my continuous thoughts and prayers!
    And oh, by the way, those boots you were Rockin on Friday…HOT!!!!!

  28. Been praying since Friday. I know God is watching over you! How else to explain the events, but PLEASE GOD, give Ashley a BREAK!

  29. Sitting in my dorm throwing a pity party about typing an essay and doing math hw and then I read this… Your strength and positive outlook on life inspires me everyday! Praying and thinking about you always. So thankful God placed such an awesome role model in my life. Love you lots and sending you many Moles hugs and kisses! 🙂

  30. I am lifting you up in prayer. Today and everyday. Keep that great spirit going. You are amazing. GOD BLESS YOU AND HEAL YOU <3

  31. Ashley,
    Just thinking about you and sending well wishes and prayers your way. You attitude and fight truly are an inspiration. I know good things will come your way, you so deserve it. All my best!!

  32. Ashley, Just found out about your trials and tribulations… If there is anything I can do to help, please don’t hesitate to ask. As a mother of 2 little ones myself I can completely empathize your situation. Whatever you need please don’t hesitate to ask. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. God Bless.

  33. Mrs. Taube!! Sending prayers and well wishes to you, we miss you so much in 6th period, we all heard what happened and we are all praying for you! Get well soon, we miss you!! ❤️

  34. Ashley God has placed you in the palm of his loving hands. He has sent Angels to watch over you. Just take it easy and let God do his work for you. We all love you and the family. keeping you in my prayers.. Hugs <3!!!

  35. Hey mrs. Taube my family and I will be praying every free second for you! I miss you in class! Love Keely hoppmeyer <3

  36. I’m not sure if you remember me I retired from MillCreek lunchroom in 2012!! I love how positive you are!! You are such a beautiful person and if prayer is all I have to give you have every prayer in me!! God bless you and your family!!

  37. That’s so scary, Ashley! I’m so thankful that you had all the right people there to help. Tim and I will be praying for you and Mike and your family!

  38. Sending up prayers for you, Ashley. What a scary time. You are such an inspiration and fighter. We don’t always understand the journey in the midst of it . . . thankful for the living angels in your presence on Friday morning. Praying for healing and calmer days ahead.

  39. Ashley, I have been thinking about you all day. I heard news thru my father this morning because your uncle Tommy was at his house this morning. and of course I had no idea what was going on in your life at the moment. I think of all of the Baker children, all of you have a special place in my heart. As of late most of the news I received was thru Mike at the car repair shop if your dad dropped off a car, the new house your folks built by Kelly Ott who you may remember from Tuxedo. Even some news from Mark when he talks to Robbie, that is how I found you here. Anyway, I just wanted to say you look beautiful as ever as well as your children. You are in my thoughts and prayers and if there is anything I can do for you your family or your folks please let me know. Marie s.

  40. Ashley, you are an amazing person with a gift of love. So many people care about you and Mike, so just imagine how many prayers are coming your way.. Keep that thought close to your heart and God will see you through this battle. .You are a friend that has always been so kind to me. Thank you for being you!

  41. We met last year at the Moms Group meeting at Celebration that Kathy Hyder coordinated ( Jen Hatmaker-For The Love). You stood out to me then. I didn’t know why, at the time, why you made such an impression on me but you did. We were asked to describe our families… as sweet/crazy. You answered sweet and I answered crazy. I met your mom the last week of summer camp at Celebration as we were both new hires. She too, made an impression on me. You, my dear, Indeed do have the sweetest family! I know our paths are only recently connected but you, and your sweet family are in my prayers daily. You are a warrior, a super hero, a champion in faith! You inspire me!!! Hang tough and know that you are thought get of and prayed for daily!

  42. Ashley you are amazing and such a strong woman. I wish you the best of luck… thinking of you and your family. I was good friends with Mike at St. Bede. He’s a great guy. You are an inspiration to myself…and I’m sure to many. Hang in there darling!!

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