Month: January 2019

It’s been difficult for me to write this blog entry. Not because I don’t have anything to say, but how do you do justice to a sport that meant so much to Ashley and was so much a part of my life the last 14 years (25 years for Ashley) in one blog entry. This post was 3452 words so I edited it down, which become 5551 words before I edited it again. This blog is still too long but you can judge for yourself. Thursday 1/24 was five weeks since Ashley passed away. I […]

Several years ago, when Fischer was about 1 1/2, I came home early because a game got cancelled.  I opened up the door and he hopped off the couch and came running to me (Fischer was walking at 10 months) and said Daddy! and Ashley said “Yay, Daddy’s home.” I said, “you don’t know how happy this makes me” Ashley replied, “you don’t know, how happy THIS, makes me!” One day Ashley was shopping and saw this sign (Yay! You’re Home!) and thought of me. Ashley often told me that she was always so happy […]

As I continue to honor Ashley’s memory, I want to share some of my thoughts on grief. My wife had so many awesome connections in her life, that I know there is an army of people that have similar feelings to mine. Even if it’s a fraction of what I feel, I know it hurts. In “Part 1,” I alluded to the idea that my tips for dealing with grief aren’t working for me but might work for you. That’s a stupid statement. (As Baker’s voice is ringing in my head, “daddy you shouldn’t say […]

Ashley would often point out that I never take credit for my doctorate.  If it were up to her, all of my clothing and belongings would be embroidered or emblazoned with Dr. Taube. I don’t emblazon anything. This Christmas Ashley got me a journal embossed with Dr. Taube.  She told my sister in-law, “Mike never wants recognition for his accomplishments, I’m going to keep getting gifts with Dr. Taube on it.”  She went to say that I am a nerd that writes everything down when we go to doctor’s appointments, or meetings, or parent teacher […]

So here you go, the continuation of the jointeamtaube.com blog. The past few days I’ve gotten a lot of positive feedback on my remembrance of Ashley at her Celebration of life. It was hard for me to even to attempt to eulogize my wife.  The only thing I found fitting, was a love letter that I wrote to Ashley on our wedding day. Ashley keeps everything, and I mean everything.  So as I was looking through important documents that you need when you spouse passes, I found the letter. Reading the letter brought back memories […]

It has been two weeks since Ashley has passed. I did not think I would make it two minutes without her, let alone two weeks. Living life without Ashley hasn’t gotten easier, but it hasn’t gotten harder. My boys give me silliness and love when I need it, my family gives me strength and have been awesome at helping me navigate this new life and my friends… my friends are my lifeline. They keep me from withdrawing, keep me connected to Ashley, keep me laughing… Ashley and I have been very lucky to have the […]

What’s that? In our house, we say “bloop, bloop, bloop” instead of fast-forward when watching a recorded show. This goes back to when Ashley and I first started hanging out. She would record shows like Big Bang Theory or Sex in the City on her Tivo. I’d come over to do laundry and watch TV. See, when I first moved to Georgia I wasn’t going to settle here so I did not afford myself the luxuries of a washer and dryer, or cable TV for that matter. So, being a nice friend, Ashley let me […]