Ashley Taube

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  • Basically, I Don’t Feel Well

    I haven’t updated you in a while, which I’m sure you realize means that I haven’t felt well.  This update isn’t going to be full of giggles and sunshine or of any great length because I just don’t have the energy to muster up a whole lot of anything.   Here’s how I feel: low energy, back pain, nausea, fatigue, vomiting, weight loss and bizarre things/colors coming out my back end that leads my doctors to believe I have internal bleeding…again.  The most basic of tasks feel daunting.  Last night, I was in bed and needed […]

  • One Day at a Time

    I suppose there is quite a bit to update everyone on, but I often find that I hesitate to update because I’m usually waiting for the next news or next doctor appointment to clarify the plan.  The plan is ongoing, which is great (I function best on a plan), but it makes it feel like there is never a period or exclamation point at the end…it’s just a bunch of ellipses (I think that’s what you call the dot dot dot).  Here is the update on where I am medically…   We had another trip […]

  • What Lies Ahead, We Don’t Know

    I wasn’t planning on blogging today, but in my Timehop app (in my opinion, everyone needs this app- it brings back so many memories) a picture popped up that made me smile…and also made me think about when the picture was taken.  So many changes from then until now have occurred…some amazingly great, and some amazingly awful.  In August 2012, Mike and I took family pictures with Fischer because he was about 9 months old, and we were so happy with how they turned out that we framed multiple shots around our house.  We even […]

  • Beauty Product Must Haves

    Okay ladies, I may feel like crap from time to time, but I am always on the hunt for amazing beauty products.  There is extreme satisfaction to see someone after a tough time and for them to say you look great!  Look good, feel good.  That is one of my mottos.  I don’t think anyone wants to look a mess; sometimes it takes more effort than other times, but learn some tricks, find good products and it becomes a lot quicker and easier.   I am about to share some wisdom with you, so get […]

  • Don’t Speak Too Soon

    I’ve been quiet on my blog, which you know what that means…I haven’t felt well.  Honestly, I was feeling GREAT!  Probably the best I had felt in maybe a year, if not more, so I was handling the small abdomen bloating issue since it seemed minor comparatively. I noticed that I started to have swelling in my abdomen in late April, early May.  It would start on my right side, and the more I ate throughout the day it would gravitate to my whole abdomen.  It was getting worse, and I was bringing it up to […]

  • Another Tampa Trip in the Books

    I feel pretty good. Honest.  I have the most energy that I have had in probably over a year…if not more.  My back pain is gone unless I decide to sit in a terribly uncomfortable chair for any length of time (which everyone probably has this scenario, so I’m not special).  I am feeling stronger thanks to the 100 chaturangas I’m doing each week.  Chatu-what-a?!  It’s a yoga term for basically doing a slow and controlled tricep pushup.  I’m able to stand for more than 30 seconds without feeling uncomfortable, and overall my mental and physical […]

  • Extraordinary vs. Extra Ordinary

    Recently, I was in bed reading trying to leave the TV off in hopes of making me sleepy vs. wanting to stay up and watch 5 episodes of House Hunters (because I already finished all 6 seasons of Sex and the City).  I was reading Jen Hatmaker’s Of Mess and Moxie, and if you haven’t read a Jen Hatmaker book, then, ladies, you should.  I would personally skip her book called SEVEN because there is no possible way I could limit myself to only 7 items of clothing for any length of time.  I’m pretty confident I […]

  • Yoga is my AED

    I have felt extra emotional lately, and frankly I don’t like it.  I like to think that I have not always been emotional, but Mike begs to differ. I’m not the girl who cries at movies or commercials, but I feel that the tides are turning as I’m getting older. This is not really my ideal situation, but I suppose I need to just accept it and move on with it.   I had two moments lately that made me start putting my emotions in check, and I realized in one situation I was fine with crying […]

  • Sex and the City

    June 6th is an important date for 2 reasons…1- it is my wedding anniversary, and ironically enough, 2- it is the day that Sex and the City season 1 aired.  This glorious show started in 1998 (11 years before I got married), and I remember watching it.  I watched it when it actually came on…like 9pm on Saturday night…as in there were no DVRs or TiVo to record it for you.  In extreme emergencies, I would set the VCR to record an episode if I could not make it in front of the TV to […]

  • Back Pain Update

    Another Tampa trip is in the books.  This trip was to get a nerve block to help relieve me of my back pain.  We flew down on Wednesday evening to have the procedure on Thursday morning.  I was expecting an easy procedure but started feeling some major anxiety as the time got closer.  You see, every time I have come out of anesthesia I have had a worse and worse experience.  Mainly 2 things occur…I have to go to the bathroom like something awful but can’t manage to use a bed pan, and I get […]

  • New Product Alert!

    Okay, ladies…men, you will not care anything about this post, so see ya later!  I need a break from depressing medical talk, so let’s talk makeup.  Ladies, I have found a new product that I am smitten with.  You can find this new brand at Target, and it is called Sleek MakeUP.  I found this brand because sometimes I will order a Target Beauty Box, which is another item you should be checking out sometime soon.  The Beauty Boxes are $7 online, and if you have your Target REDcard then you get free shipping and […]

  • Tampa Update

    We are back from Tampa and have been for several days…I just haven’t been able to get my thoughts on my keyboard because I’ve had distractions.  I just saw a post on Facebook that referenced how mothers struggle to get things done because when they start a task, it gets interrupted by “Mommy, I have to go to the bathroom,” and then you refocus by finding something that needs putting away.  Then when that is put away, you remember that you haven’t sent that email that you were supposed to, and then you try to […]

  • Anticipation

    While the Super Bowl is always an event worth watching in our house, this year I have no investment.  I don’t have a preference on who I want to win.  I do feel that the Patriots may be the NFL equivalent of Alabama in NCAA; many people are tired of the Patriots winning similar to how they are tired of Alabama.  When you are good, you are good.  It’s as simple as that.  In other news, I go to Tampa this week to find out my fate for the next round of treatment.  People often […]

  • How Do I Say This Nicely…

    This is going to offend some people, which I would like to point out is NOT my goal.  If I had it my way, then everyone would laugh, think I’m hilarious, and walk away with a little piece of helpful knowledge on what to say to people fighting cancer.   Look- I KNOW, like I 100% KNOW that people are just being nice.  They just want to help!  All they want to do is help me and make me feel better and give me some little tidbit of information that might, just MIGHT be the […]

  • Better Late Than Never

    Remember the last time I posted (in October), and I said, “I’m going to try and update you more often?”  Apparently, I lied.  Here we are in early 2018, and I am just now sitting down to type an update.  I have not felt like writing because I still don’t feel well.  I conquered 3 weeks of radiation and was set to return to Tampa in mid-December to discuss the results of radiation, and that is when we discovered that the tumors did not shrink.  They didn’t grow or spread, so that was good; they […]

By Daniele Zedda • 18 February


By Daniele Zedda • 18 February

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